Wow! What a Day!

I wrote this post about three years ago, not sure why it never got posted. Strange.


Today was a craptastic day. (is that a word?) When I looked on the board and saw my assignment, I knew, right then, first things this morning that today was going to s-u-c-k! And it did. Totally.

I work at a hospital as a float aide. Don't get me wrong, I love my job. A whole bunches even. But I don't love the floor that I worked on today. In fact, it was the same floor that I blogged about last time.

What?

You didn't read my last blog?

Sigh...go. Read. Now.

Back to my craptastic day. One thing I have learned is how family members have a tendacy to take over and be a pain in the rear. Today I had one of those family members that drove me crazy. She would tell the patient what she wanted, then push the call light. Let me give you an example. "Mom, you really should lay down, you have been sitting too long" (15 minutes after it took three of us to put her in the chair), "Mom, you need to go to the bathroom. Mom, you need a pain pill. Mom, Mom, MOM!!!!!!" I spent the vast majority of my day in one room. Forget the 8 other patients that needed my help. I was constantly called in that room. THAT ROOM.

And why is it that the nurse was avoiding that room like the plague? What frustrated me even more was when I got called into the room for medications and I dont even administer meds! Worse yet, the RN was sitting right in front of the room and blatantly ignored the light. I know that she was as frustrated as I, however, when I am 3/4 the way down the hall, it really sucks to have to turn around, go to that room, THAT ROOM, just to hear, "mom would like some pain, anxiety, whatever pills." Under my breath, just slightly, I one time said "so would I".

IMO, I think it would have been a decent day if her daughter would have stayed home. I am not at all above helping my patients. I love my patients. Even the crotchety ones. It's the family members I can do without. At least THOSE ones.

So that is what made for a craptastic day. I think I earned kicking my feet up and sipping some wine.

Today I Graduated....

Yes I did. I graduated with an Associate Degree in Nursing. I am a nurse. What a journey !

Almost There!!

Graduation is 6 weeks away! I can't believe it! Soon I will be CrazyRN!!

YAY!! I am a nurse. I passed the NCLEX PN! I am so excited. I already applied for an LPN position at the hospital I am working at. Keep your fingers crossed that I get the job.

If becoming an LPN feels this good, I can't wait to see what becoming an RN feels like! GOOOO ME!!!!

Wow! I'm honored!

I just received an email that states I have been nominated for a blogger award. That's pretty awesome! Thank you to whoever nominated me.

Life has been interesting. I have successfully finished first year and am moving into the second and well, not so final year. I am going to keep going after getting my ADN and work toward a BSN, then who knows, I may keep chugging along!

I took the NCLEX PN today. I'm not sure why I took it, as I probably wont work as a LPN, but the experience was worth it. That NCLEX is no joke. That's all I have to say about that!

I will try to keep you updated on second year. I hear it's going to be pretty interesting!

Losing My Enthusiasm

This is how I feel. Like I'm stuck in a sink hole. I'm half way through nursing school. I'm in what should be the easiest rotation for me but it is proving to be a challenge. My support system is failing me. My support system is becoming my biggest distraction and I can't wrap my brain around why.

My marriage isn't going to survive this. I never realized how weak my marriage was until nursing school. I am working so hard to get through this to give us the life we have so desperately wanted for so many years, just for him to give me constant grief and make my life so miserable. I sacrificed many, MANY years for him living with his mother, you would think he would be able to handle two. No, he can't.

Don't get me wrong. He does help with the physical aspect of things. Emotionally, I'm on my own. He has always sucked at being there for me emotionally though. I guess some things will never change. But now, it's affecting my future like it never has before. If I fail because of his bull, I will never forgive him. If I make it through and he leaves, I will never forgive him. Why is it so hard for him to be here for me emotionally?

All I can do is pray for strength.

Med/Surg Nursing

Med/Surg nursing is no joke! I just completed the surgical part (103) of the rotation, now I am entering the med part (102). This stuff is a lot of hard work, wear and tear on your nerves and quite frankly, the tester of your sanity! Mine has been tested over and over!

We are embarking on the two year anniversary of Hunters demise. I still think about him everyday and wonder if I would be in school right now had things turned out differently. I guess we will never know.

My original class has already graduated and most have already gotten their first jobs as RN's. It was bittersweet to read about their success, in ways it hurt but in more ways, I am so proud of them. They worked hard and deserve the freedom of being finished with the private hell known as nursing school. After this semester, I will be a third of the way done, with three more semesters to go. My graduation date is May 2013, just around the corner really. I can't wait to be d-o-n-e! It has definitely been a long road to travel, but I can also say, quite the interesting journey.